ROE

ROE=Rules of Engagement. This is my blog, not yours. You are welcome to peruse and comment. However, if I don't like your comment...I reserve the right to banish it to whatever fate it deserves. I post on a wide range of subjects, from projects to politics; I don't always make sense, even to myself, but once again, it's my blog. Sometimes I rant, waffle, argue with myself, babble, and sometimes I am actually quite articulate and eloquent--it's rare, so watch for it.

Also? This is my homepage, since Google decided the iGoogle thing is going away. iGoogle was a great place to keep all the links and gadgets and what-have-yous that I realy liked; this is the next best thing. So, that means there will be links on here that don't make sense to you.

3-10-13 Sorry, I've had to turn word verification on; bloody tired of the spam.

Monday, April 22, 2013


We’ve been dyin’ since we were born,
All fallin’ ‘round us,
A one-way street to decline...

Sometimes I hear the trees,
Listen to the mountains breathe,
Gentle breath, rockin’ time with discord….

Is there a mountain top left for me?
Is there a valley so deep I can’t see the sky?
I could sleep now, close my eyes and never wake…

© N. Bradford-Reid 2013

Sunday, April 21, 2013

The Ultimate American Tradegy

I sit here, wondering if I'm the only American who feels the way I do about the "Marathon Bombing." Surely there must be others who, when they look at that kid, the surviving bomber, get a deep and profound sense of sadness.

Up front, I'd like to make it clear in no way do I condone or sympathize with the acts of terror committed by the Tsarnaev brothers. Violence is rarely the answer to anything (some would say never).  But what occurs to me is that this is the ultimate American tragedy, even more so, if possible, than 9-11. The acts on 9-11 were far more horrendous, many more people died or were permanently affected. The "body count," if you will, was much higher. "Only" three were killed in Boston, four if you include the MIT policeman, of course; nearly 200 injured—some grievously and horrifically--and there was certainly trauma.

But the difference is that the perpetrators of 9-11 were part of a much larger plot to commit acts of evil and mayhem; they came to this country for the express purpose of committing this heinous act.  The brothers who carried out the "Marathon Bombing" were products of a dream gone horribly wrong.

The Tsarnaev family came to the US, escaping the violence in Chechnya. They seemed to have given their kids a great start, education at top schools, opportunities to succeed, to interact. And from all appearances, they were doing okay. The dream of immigrating to the US seemed to be working. But something was wrong in paradise. The older brother, who was a teenager when they came here, felt he was an outsider, and that's entirely possible. Americans—like people everywhere—can be right jerks when it comes to welcoming outsiders. I know this quite well from personal experience, and I was born in the US, my roots go back to before the American Revolution in this country. A *am* an American through and through, and yet so many times was made to feel unwanted and disliked. After a while, I developed a shell and just didn't try to fit in anymore.

With the internet and social media, I can imagine the older brother communicating with other displaced Chechens, forming strong opinions, reinforcing that feeling of hate and being hated. The younger brother, looking up to the older sibling, fell right into it. The acts they committed were inexcusable, but I can empathize with the feeling of outside-ness.

When I look at that face, I don't see the face of an evil mastermind, I see a kid....who was bleeding, terrified, and hunted. His face reminds me of my own son, only three years younger, and I can only feel astounding sadness that this kid felt so alone that it came to this. He will most likely be tried and executed; but some beautiful, youthfully innocent part of him was already dead.

Life is what you make of it and as Jim Wright pointed out, and as I have pointed out to many people, there are so many niches in a country like ours, that all it takes is looking. It's a pity the Tsarnaevs didn't keep looking. A pity for Boston, a pity for the US, and a pity for a 19 year-old whose life ended when he dropped that backpack. I guess it all seemed so simple to him at that point.


Friday, March 15, 2013

Art update

Went and had a coffee and long chat with one of my best friends last night. She's an author (her fourth fiction novel comes out in 11 days!) and fellow artist and journaler. She had a whole bag of crafty stuff she was getting rid of, and of course...I had to take all of it. A really nice sketchbook, some blank books, beads, a couple of canvas boards that were painted on by her gran, but discarded, so they're ready to be new pictures or maybe journal covers, blank ATCs, all sorts of little paper-crafty paper bits and journal cards, most of a package of shrinky plastic sheets, and a full half-pint bottle of Liquitex liquid matte medium. Woot!

I found a place thru Amazon to order a Ranger Inkssentials Craft Sheet for only $3.20 plus S&H. It came right away but when I first opened it, I thought I'd gotten ripped off. I was expecting something more like the silpat baking sheet. This is thin, and kind of cheesy feeling. So...I went out and watched a video* about it and realized I had the right thing. But...it came just rolled up in a shipping tube, with no box or instructions, so with more research, I realized what this place is doing. They're buying this from the Ranger company, cutting it up into 15 x 18 inch pieces and reselling it. Clever. And...for less than half of what it would cost you if you bought the packaged one at retail.

*Caution: Valley Girl accent warning label.

So, I will be trying that out soon and letting you know if it's as wonderful as everyone touts.